ok i dont feel like updating bt i do at the same time so this will be short..ok i kno u guyz hate it when i degrate myself but i have very good reasons that only me and one other person kno about my past which is my excuse so fuck all of you...i ahte my life and my feelings i wish i could just wish them or just die..which ever comes first...but i feel really jealous right now cuz...hmmm..no im not going ot talk about this one...ive brought his up way to many times and it needs to just like go away lol if that makes sense...ok you mother fuckers i think im hott...are you all happy now!!!but i dunno i feel like shit right now and i just kindawanna sleep and not wake up but that would make me sad too...god my life is soo fucked up...no body knows how i feel or wat i go through everyday you really dont kno the torture and pain..its insane..i need my friends now more than ever nd my music...i really dont have ne friends except kyle, dustin and amber...they are teh only ones who talk to me...thanks u crackas u guys r the shiz nit..ok well im out u niggers.(sorry for that one amber...i kno it will make u mad but pleeze forgive me)

hello my children its been a while..im just too lazy to update and this will be the last one but im not deleting it im just going to not update but keep signing the tag board!!! and im supposed to put something about christine and mike so im going to put a quote in.ok here we go..christine-"my nigga. mike-"forshizzle" haha but ne ways i dont evenkno wat to talk about im such a loser...well i used to be and only one person knows the story and she knows who she is and i got to talk about my pathetic past to hr nad well i gotta say it feels good to talk about it cuz i think it needed to be said. but ne ways i hope everyone is having a grand summer. i kno im not i have no friends eexcept kyle and dustin cuz ive been doing alot of stuff with them but thats it...im such a loser...but i finally acceptedthe fact that im hott..OK ARE YOU FUCKERS HAPPY NOW!!! but WARPED TOUR IS TOMMORROW YIPPEE I M SOO FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!!! yea itll be a grand time...i think me nad kyle are going to start a band..but i dunno my bass guitar is a piece of shit and i hate it even tho it makes maber mad cuz it hurts my fingers and god forbid i feel some pain throughout my life...haha and i noticed that everytime i type her name i type maber so im going to call her that from now on...but man o man she is the only one who knows the pain i went through in my grade skuel years..but kno one knows the pain ive felt this summer..its indescribable but im going to get through it itll be ok..i just kno it will and if you kno wat happened to me then you will understnad why my blog is called hatred.for.love.hehe..but i  dunno ne more. oh jeeze wat else to type i dunoo..i have add give me a break...gahhh im done with my fucking paper route..man if you want a paper route think again u dont especially from the vindicator they r assholes. and i wanna kill them. i barley see ne of u ppl ne more and well if you read this then call me 7938374 and we'll do something..no one calls me except kyle who is like my best guy friend ever!! wat a pal. i wish some otehr ppl would call me namely some one who i love most dearly..oh of course ill call her and she'll say yea ill call u back but does she....noooooooooooo..well not that i remember. i kno im a fucking loser but if u do then fucking tell me dont hide it from me cuz if i find out ill fucking kill you..nd im serious..im like the most passive aggressive person u can meetnad if i get mad well i cant like keep it down till i either hurt someone, something, or myself..but ne ways...haha i have way to much anger inside of me.. but hmm wow this has got to be the biggest entry ive made ever..YEEE i feel so happy..hahah im think i dont kno wat else to write but to finish it off im going to out my favorite song of all time in here and if youve never heard it before you shuld download it or watever cuz it is thee shit!!!good bye kiddos!!

hello my children. how have all of u been? ive been really shitty!!  I MISS MY BELOVED AMBER!! i want to see. im goingto go over her house next week no matter what any one says. im going threw withdrawal and i must see her.  ive talked to her alot and it makes me miss her more. but i dunno what will happen.  ive never really felt this way about anyone before and she shouldve told me she like me before so i wouldnt have to go out with that bitchy fucker jen. but i think i should stop talking about her because its making me sad just thinking about her and how much i miss her, buttheres nothing else to really talk about. i need to buy a warped tour ticket because im going to see all the sweet ass bands and itll be grand!! i hope. but oh well i dont know what else to write so im gunna end this little edited section, part, updation whatever u want to call it

i feel like updating but i dunno what to write so this will be short..

i got a paper rout yesterday and quit this morning..lol its pretty funny. dont i feel like a real winner. no im a loser.

so i got to talk to amber today!!! hip hip hooray!! hip hip Hooray!! hip hip hooray!! haha had to do it 3 times. but shes doing ok i guess as she says. i think thats what she says?. lol but anyways amanda is grounded for like 6 months i think and we should all go visit her one day and storm her household, eliminate her parental units and liberate her from impending doom!! bwahahahahaha its the perfect plan!!!

but i dunno what else to write except EVERY ONE WHO READS THIS SIGN MY TAGBOARD BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE DOES ANYMORE AND GO TO THE GRAVITY HOUSE SHOW ON JULY 14TH BECAUSE TEN COUNT FALL IS BACK AND THEY ARE THE FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been a while since the RIGHTFUL owner of this blog updated buyt o hjere we go. so last week me and my sister had the house to ourselves from thursday till sunday which was pretty kool and i went to the festival every day that week except wednesday and it was ok i yelled at the stupid ass carneys becasue i hate them lik with a passion for fashion. amber was there everyday which made me happy!!

so i went to kyle and dustins house yesterday and we found a machete in the woods where all of them bad kids where getting high!! haha. 

YEAHH!!! summer is finnally fucking here!!! it's about time. now that i have a life and friends i hope this summer will be exciting unlike ALL the other ones i lived through throughout my loser life.but yea anyways i went to ee last night and it was quite fun even tho i missed 2 bands. but i listened to seths band and they kick ass...plus Amber was there so that definately made the night alot more exciting. and brit and all of her goofy boardman friends were there and we all one swell time!! last night i slept for like 11 hours. im a pretty lazy guy. then i went to wal-mart and got a hat and aviator sun-glasses and they r the shit. later i went to the ihm festival and had a good time..mostly because i saw Amber and my real good friend cory endress. god what a sexy guy. yea Amber wasnt feeling to good so i was kinda sad. she always seems to be feeling bad...jk amber. we walked around alot and she met my sis and her boyfriend. my sisters boyfriend is the number one greatest guy ever!!!! jackie jones was there too and she was like really crazzay. she was like all over my friend cory! haha and cory got caught stealing by father papovich(spelling?) it was so funny. and every body had these stupid ass marshmallows shooter things and they were getting on my fucking nerves. with the exception of my friends,such as kyle, jimmy, john, and who ever else i kno that had one. but the night ended kinda quick and i gave amber a kiss goodbye and she seemed to be excited by that. and i kno she will read this and i want her to kno that she is super fucking hott and i am super fucking fugly.(if u people dont know what fugly is it means im fucking ugly) yea id love to make out with that gorgeous gal. maybe sometime this summer, u never kno, yea if she is reading this shes probably either laughing or doin the 'OK?' face which ever one she prefers. but anyway im now sitting here eating beef jerky and ending this boring updation so peace out playas.


I LOVE YOU AMBER!!!!!!

yes so it is absolutley official(haha im such a dork) but me and amber are 'dating' by her deffinition which is sexy lil amz oo7: dating -- not going out like goes places together and i dunno does b/f and g/f things just not a couple yet. not exactly what i hoped for but non the less it makes me extremely happy. i had hoped that we would go out but i see her point in how she wants to wait to see if we can actually last in a relationship and i really hope we end up going out and LASTING! but anyway. we only have 2 days of skuel left and im sooooooooo happy. but i definatley think it will go by fast. perhaps because i will have sooo much fun. haha. but all u losers who missed ee on friday u seriously missed out big time because it was awesome and i got up on stage and flashed everyone twice and got to speak in the mic that i love brandon wirtz and matt kutie! then i started a moshpit with this kid mike and dustin baumgardner and some other crazzy krackas but me mike and dustin are the only ones who got kicked out but it was definatly worth it becasue i got to see amber that night and that made my day. soo not much else to type so im out playas. I LOVE YOU AMBER!!!!!!!

this weekend was quite enjoiable. to start it off i went ot another local bands ee cd party thing and it was friggin awesome...even certain people didnt have fun and wouldnt stop complaing that they missed west point stride even kno their singers voice was seriously getting on my nerves.but any way yea i say my lovely amber there and i think she might be crazy...because she thinks dating and going out r 2 different things and that really doesnt make sense to me and she keeps saying that i hate her(well i say she hates me to) but if shes reading this i want her to kno that i dont hate her and love her more than anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i bought another local bands and illicit dreams cd's cause they are some awesome bands. hahaha and if u werent at ee to see me get kicked out then u r a loser!1 and i got up on stage and flashed everyone like twice..what a great night! saturday i enjoyed the festival with my best friend matt melnek and non of you losers kno who he is but he is like an awesome guy but kinda shy. but any way he such a loser because he turned down a hug from jackie jones. but hes a great guy anyway. and he kept wandering off and we had to develope search parties but it was all good...haha and he won 4 fish even tho 2 died and the other 2 we flushed down even tho they were still alive. yea but i really really wish amber would go out with me and it saddens me that she doesnt want to. but any way it was a fun time and today well didnt do much but spent the night at matts cause we r best friends. but i dont kno what else to write so im out playas. amber i love you!!!!!!!